Thursday, January 31, 2008

why am I feeling so tired everyday? hmmm =(
knew the outcome and bear the consequence
you will never know how much the person sacrifices for you unless the person tells you
my future is in my hands
just wish that I play hard and strive harder for my studies
how i wish half of my strength for playing captain ball can goes to my studies
no more strength for anything now except playing (maybe)
I am not happy nor sad
i have no more feelings for the time being

shall stop here tonight
good night!

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {7:18 AM}
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Friday, January 25, 2008

it's Friday le! so fast..yeah! had quite a fun day today! ^^

as usual, went to school in the morning then ended lesson at 11 plus..had lunch in school..then went J8 walk walk..yeah we went to play arcade..played basketball and Mario! lolx..FUN!..Darren didn't get to play as he's wearing school's pants..so we faster play then go and find him..then after that walk back to school for MIC outing at East Coast! (sand building) =)

reach there at 3 plus..divide into 4 groups..mei ying and me..jess with Hwee ting..after briefing, discuss what to do, draw out the picture we want to build..then go for another tools briefing then we started to build the sand castle..it was so fun!!! =) (I'm just too tired to blog in details)

after that had a small break, after break, every group have to so call present their own castle..lolx..yups..took quite a number of pictures too..if possible will upload soon..^^ then debrief and we went off at 7plus..went wash up then walk all the way back to mac there..the place is really far!!! can you imagine we took about 45 to 1 hr to reach mac.. we walk from E to C..it was really far!!! haha..so tired today..then went mac buy dinner..after that Hwee ting's dad drive me home..yeayea..^^ okay! i shall stop here tonight..i'm very sleepy le..shall blog another day..=)

good night people!

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {6:49 AM}
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Monday, January 21, 2008

Am I making myself busy or am I really busy? I don't know the answer either..
maybe letting my friends to do what they wish to do is just 1 way of my care towards them..
we are not as close as what you guys think we are..
there's good and bad of having loads of friends..i have loads of friends..
but how many of them are really my best friend? i can say they are all my good companies..
having 1 or 2 best friends is enough for everything..
Hmm..my temper is getting from bad to worse..=(
I tried to control le..maybe I should try harder..

shall stop here..
good night people!


-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {6:41 AM}
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Saturday, January 19, 2008

a new year, a new beginning..
what I always tell myself..I shouldn't go back to how I was in 2007..
telling myself..play HARD..work HARDER..but there doesn't seem to have any changes yet..
but I really tried hard for my studies..I really did..maybe I just have try harder so that I can see the results..trying hard not to waste my parents money..Not good in any of my modules now..my life are just so boring..I just have to think for my future..if I can't get in poly..what am I going to do next time? a childcare teacher? I'm not very good in teaching..I just wish to play with the kids..nanny? maybe..haha..=)

hmm just work hard for everything now..
WATCHING is easy - UNDERSTANDING is difficult..
SAYING is easy - DOING is harder..
but if you tried nothing is impossible..
everyone can do it..i can do it too..
stop thinking nonsense stuffs..
do what i should do during 18 years old..and not being 13 or 14 years old..^^
enjoy school life now..and not regretted when i gets old..

always wish to treat my mom better..but every time she just make me feel frustrated..arghh..every time go her stall help her will always lose my temper to her..
no one can tell me what to do..only myself..

my life is just driving my crazy..
but I know I am a fortunate girl..should just thanks for everything I have..

shall just stop here..
good night friends =)


-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {7:01 AM}
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Sunday, January 13, 2008

I regretted asking you to join..I know that's no use regretting now..
It's just my mistake..
Because those words will still be remain in your mind..
it may be a good thing and a bad thing to ask you to join..
I didn't expect things to be happen like that..
and I don't know why must she be so sarcastic..
I'm sorry, I really don't know what to say as I still has to contact with her..
i know she is biased..but what can I really do? just nothing..
I just want you to know how I feel..words from my mouth may just hurt you..I apologise..
But I really know how you feel..

The path you choose will lead you to the place you want to go...just go..

As I said before, if you fall I won't hold you up..as i know you will have the ability to stand up by yourself ...

so all the best in everything you do..I will give you my support if you are doing the right thing..

I will miss the days going to school with you..
just hope that you will see this soon..

don't ask me about this post please..thanks for respecting..^^

good night people! ^^

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {5:51 AM}
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Saturday, January 05, 2008

31 jan 2007

how did i spend my last day of 2007?

i spend it working with yiling at swiss club! ^^

in the morning got mic studio then went hm to change then meet yiling for lunch cum dinner at 4pm..

then off to work..

work was pretty fun..we work from 6pm to 2am plus..acab..after that went to meet pam..as she was with kai rong and some friends at boat quay..sit down, chit chat, drink a bit..went off at around 430 like tt..then went to take cab home with yiling..we waited for the cab like 30 to 45 min then manage to on call a cab reach home at 5.45..then off to bed at 6am..the next day still got class gathering...hahaha..=)

i don't like to see my friends to drink until they drunk...

it's so scary..it's may be the real them but like they change to another person..

i know i really haven know the world..but ya...

i won't let my friends drink too much...i would just control them if they are with me..^^

just don't let me see my friends drunk..
they can just drink as much as possible if i'm not with them..lolx..^^

shall just stop here tonight..

happy 2008! good night people! ^^

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {10:40 PM}
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

28 dec 2007

went mic in the morning, at about 4 plus went to meet yamei..as i said i'm going to treat her to eat sushi. joeii came along..^^ after dinner..we went chinatown to eat durians! whahaha.yummy...lazy to blog in details..hehe..btw thanks for the treat yamei!!! shall hang out again..^^


29 dec 2007!

Yeah i received my birthday presents from pam and yiling..it was a FBT shorts!! whoo hoo!! i love it cos it ORANGE!!! haha..as i wanted it long time ago..^^ thanks girls..i love it! =)




30 dec 2007!

today meet up with pam at 4 plus to go to Queensway as i want to buy FBT shorts for my friends..reach Queensway at 5 plus..then went to find yamei as she's working there today..went to find the shop then she was not in..she thinking whether should i call her? ended up calling her..she went for dinner then went back to the shop le..so went back to find her..as usual she will pinch pam's cheeks..hahaha..after that we to find FBT shorts..so walk walk walk, then went in this shop..so bargin until 11 bucks for 1 shorts..so i bought 2..yeah..went back to say goodbye to yamei then went tiong baru plaza to find my cousin's wife..as she was sick she was not there..i should have call her before i go..hahahaha..then we walk to another bus stop to take bus back to meet yiling for dinner...

meet my mom there, then wait for her to close the stall then go for dinner..we had zi cha for dinner...after that we home..^^ tt's all for today..=)

good night!

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {8:11 PM}
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27 december 2007!

yeah! gathering with my drama friends today! ^^

meet ying qing at AMK then take train to pasir ris..reach there about 3 plus..meet up with zhen han and shiqi..then we went fairprice to buy drinks..after that went to meet the rest..then take bus to pasir ris park..whoo hoo! reach there put down our things then started to play frisbee..haha..so fun..^^ as no one brought any ball so we didin't play any ball games..after playing, i saw people flying kite!!! ahhh..so i ask ying qing accompany me go buy kite..as the rest started to eat..after that join them eat..after eating we started to play the kites, taking photos..hahaha...

at around 5 plus 6 the sky started to drizzle..while shiqi they all went to fetch xin yi..we move into the shelter..then we play game..yong zhi teach us 'chuchy game'..haha it was so fun! then got forfeit..then si zhao squat on the dustbin and say 'i love SINGAPORE!' hahaha..after 30 mins shiqi they all still haven come back..after a while they came out with a cake..hehe..so they rest started singing birthday song for me and tze hui as her birthday is tml..thanks guys! =) after that cut the cake then continue to play game until 7 plus..then we went to the playground! it was so fun!!! haha..like go back to our childhood times..haha..we goes around the place and play all the things got drums, swings, slides..haha..after that we went for our dinner at a coffee shop..we had zi cha!!! yummy! after that we took 88 back home..^^

i enjoyed having gathering with u guys! ^^
thanks for eveything shiqi!
we shall hang out again ya..=)

good night people! ^^

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {7:39 PM}
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