Tuesday, April 29, 2008

so sad..
problem coming up again and again..
there's just lots of things to settle to do..
friendships? school stuffs? MIC stuffs?
what ever shit lah!
so tired..
NO ONE know that how i really feel ..
there's really NO ONE..
others will just doubt my feelings..
others is not in my shoes so they will never ever know how i feel..
i really feel the loneliness..it's the 1st time i feel this way..
I NEED SOMEONE TO LEAD ME!
i really need someone to pull me through..
why am i feeling proud? it's not what i want..things just makes me proud?
can i say that? loads of unknow answers..
i'm sorry i really have no time to think and don't know how to solve it..
i choose to shut up..
if a person being dislike..people will dislike that person attitude or what ever things the person do..this is my point of view..
wanna cry..but it's just not the right time..
loads of things to do..
i'm sorry, maybe i'm just being selfish..
but maybe if i chat u i'll just make u cry..
or u will make me cry..it's just not the time yet..
i'm really sorry..i really feeling very sad..
tt's why i choose to shut up..
i'm going to be mad of everything..so i hope others don't give me any more stress..
i can no longer take it..i need TIME!
hate me ignore me what ever shit people wanna look at me now..for the time being..i can do nth..just wanna finish my stuffs before i can think of others stuffs..

good friends will never make u cry..
good friends will let u cry..
i'm acting all these while..
everything is so fake..
the feeling sucks!

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {8:05 AM}
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Monday, April 21, 2008

The new teacher in charge for mic studio is coming this week to meet us..i guess..she seems so scary as what my friend told me about her..haha..just scare that i'll say wrong things in front of her..she's like a monster to me..ahhhh haha..just good luck to me and everyone..haha..will be busy with mic and sch stuffs recently..haha..i just hope that i can cope with both thing..=)
there's nth i can do but face it..^^

once i treasure her..but when she changes,
she may longer be the girl she was..
accept the real her and do nth..
cos there's nth i can do..
working with her makes me look who she really was..
there's good and bad thing..
maybe when a person changes..
they will never change back as who they are before..
every minute, every second, everything changing..
it seems so scary..
i know i'm not doing anything wrong i won't just agree with what other says..
i hope i'm treasuring the time and pp around me..=)
respect is very important..

Be more objective about what's going on in your life.
See things for what they are.

good night ppl!
take care ^^

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {7:53 AM}
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Sunday, April 13, 2008

it's been long time since i blog..
for the pass 2 weeks i had been busying doing MIC stuffs..
finally i get to rest at home today..but didn't really rest actually..
i'm feeling down in the afternoon..so went online..
chatted with catherine and played audition with her..haha..it was pretty fun..^^
thanks for her accompany..i'm feeling better now..
and i'm now blogging here..morning pam called me and chat a while with me..and told me that she moving house..and i was thinking i would be able to meet her so often..=( she can't do anything either..she has to moved with her mother..i'm sad that u are moving..but there's nth we can do..all the best ya!

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don't ask me anything PLS..
just wish to type here..maybe i'll feel better..

when i'm feeling down..i wish that u could be my listening ears but u are always that busy..
enough for anything..i won't be able to meet u next week cos i can't blame u either..i just wish that u could at least reply my sms whether u can meet me..tt'si'll be quite busy..so hope we can meet after next week..
i'm not a healthy girl..i'll try my very best to take care of myself..
i hope i'm treasuring every single friends around me when i have the time with them..
that's includes my families..i know i think too much..but sometimes i just can't control..

now i'm trying to do well for the upcoming production and sch reopen tml..just do my best for everything..i apologise for anything attitude in advance..i appreaciate the comments from anyone of you..thanks..

shall stop here..
blog when i'm free..
take care everyone..
i only can say: i'm fine..

-------------------Shan story--------------- ; {12:13 AM}
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